16th

22/2 is my birthday, every year. This year it was sunny. In the morning, Erin brought me teacakes when she dropped me off at school, which were delicious. I forgot most of my weekend homework on my bed. Somehow I was convinced to take the day off after lunch, and so I went home. I sat on the porch for 45 minutes until my dad came out and asked me why I was here and if I was skipping. I said I didn't know what I was doing, as usual. He returned and locked the door behind him.

It was a monday, and every monday I go to my therapist and we get sushi trays from the supermarket afterwards. This monday was no different, it was unremarkable. I didn't speak much. My sister gave me a CD, Vampire Weekend's Contra (which I recommend) and I spent the night listening.

Initially I think I might've wanted to have a party, but then I decided not to, kind of like last year. I think I stopped having the energy for it.

This is pretty boring!


This week I discovered Symphony of Science which I really liked. If you have free time and you like science, please check it out. It uses the great words of incredible minds in science to create a lovely music experience.

I'd kind of like to enjoy this week but I guess I'm just doomed to begrudgingly tolerate it. I had a fever this morning... I wonder if I'm becoming sick again. I hope not because as much as I begrudgingly tolerate school I don't want to miss it. Being in my house has been kind of awkward lately.

These past few days have been one big clusterfuck of depressive anxiety and I'm not sure when it will end, but I hope soon.

It's been a long time since I've struggled so hard to write as much as I did. This is one of my less interesting posts. Maybe I'll write another later.