Yes, if I am given the opportunity to contemplate a philosophy, I will do it. I have been contemplating this one.
For me, it's as if I can't really find meaning in anything, so we are on each others' level there. It is not my duty to live for any ideal, or moral, or and especially religion, so it agrees with me. I like to focus on what I am, a human. A member of a very large group of organisms and that is absolutely all there is to it.
So from that perspective, my perspective, the only thing I can do that is remotely productive and positive is to help people and make them happy. It is what I like to do, it's the only thing I care to do. I wish I was better at it. I have no wish to "satisfy myself" with the opportunities my lifespan could provide, no. Not marriage, children, money, pride or otherwise. I am not a person of ideals and morals. I am realistic, and the realistic nature of my life is that I am a member of a group. It is my best interest to better that group in any way that I can. I'm trying to slide along the corridors of existence with as little negative interference as possible, to act as a positive being in all respects...
For that matter, I am no kind of moral individual. Life has taught me that death is essential even if sudden, even if painful. Death is not to be regretted. Memories and opportunities may be a thing to be mourned, but there is no respect in death. Death is as primal as time itself. Do I fear death? No. Do I wish it upon others? No. But deaths are a tragedy and an atrocity when initiated between the hands of brothers. War should not exist for this reason. We cannot consider ourselves even remotely responsible for anything if we allow war and nuclear weapons to continue in this world.
So, what then? This too is human conceit, isn't it? I'm beginning to think that human conceit it the root of all evil, if you consider evil the destruction of the environment, society, and the world. Well why not? We like being conceited. There isn't, obviously, any other force that we would call "equal" that could even attempt to challenge our position in this world. And yet with every gallon of gas burned, we're ensuring the downfall of our species and so many others. Eh, it seems like I can't help but to get apocalyptic every now and then. I just like thinking about the future.
I can't really expect much to change right now. There's simply too much stupidity for anything to get done. Stupidity and conceit, that is. What can I even hope to expect from my own generation? If history is any kind of lesson, then probably not much if anything at all. Sure, there are small steps we can take. But these steps are indeed too small, and much too far in between. In my lifetime, the realization of climate change has occurred, but not much else. The iron grip of the rich and frantic has prevented any major progress. The more I see of the world around me, the less hope I have for my generation and thus future generations. Frighteningly contrary to my usual enthusiasm, I find myself feeling a need for an apocalyptic event. What if humanity could start over? What if we could take our knowledge of sciences and mechanics and history and create a world in which we wouldn't have to worry about any of this?
That's what I would call a utopia. A balanced and controlled population of people devoid of conceit or small mindedness. People who progressed for the good of their people rather than the good of themselves.
Some people would say humans are too primal to achieve peace. I beg to differ. If we can send a fucking spaceship full of living organisms to the moon and back, our possibilities are essentially endless. Excuses should have no effect on our reality.
It might not make sense to everyone, but it makes perfect sense to me, not that my sense is worth much.
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